My Thoughts

This counts as posting. right? right??

2009-02-01T22:48:00.002+08:00

It's a new day, new day, and it's evident
You must have been heaven-sent
Sometimes we should be hesitant, but I'm not at all
Just feelin more confident
Just using my common sense
Just trust in it, I'm lovin it

I can't refuse an offer so benevolent
Can't assume he's gon' use me
And after he'll never call again
Don't be afraid, don't be afraid
This is your day, this is your day

[Chorus]
It's time to be Brave
Say I'm not afraid, not anymore
I used to be cold, now the temperature's changed
It just ain't the same
I'm not afraid, i'm not afraid
Cus I've become brave
As the light of day straight into a cave
To show me the way, that I might be saved
Now I'm turning the page
Thanks to the power of love I can love
Because I am brave

I am brave, I am brave
I heard him say this thing moving too fast for him
It's a feelin I was straddeling
Foolishly adamant, but It's all in his eyes
Really wish he would let me in
Cus the same way I'm scared of him
I'm scared of being hurt again

It's time to let go, let go of your heart
It's time for a brand new start
Never know, we might never part
Baby don't be afraid, don't be afraid
This is your day, this is your day

[Chorus]

I wouldn't take back anything that I've gone through (no)
I pray for strength for anything that I'm gonna do
Whether joy, or it's pain, I'm still okay (I, I'm still okay)
I'm a be alright cause I'm not afraid
No, I am brave (brave)

[Chorus]

I am brave

2008-11-06T21:42:00.002+08:00

I was just reading through some of my older posts in the blog. Most of them are just so pointless. lmao. (and I sound so freaking arrogant ._.)
There's this draft with a half finished story that I've written and I totally don't remember a single thing about it. I wanna know what happened next, but i didn't finish it.
And I didn't realize i typo so much. (I do typo alot in games. but lol this is just too much)

2008-09-18T05:13:00.004+08:00

oh. I forgot. if anyone is wondering what I'm doing now. I'm actually.. playing audition.

I have some (bad quality ~.~) videos up on YouTube
my youtube channel
(what else can a bored gamer do-_-)

2008-09-18T05:13:00.001+08:00

Soba ni iru ne- aoyama teruma
I love this song so much that i have to link to it in this useless blog.

2008-04-11T06:18:00.004+08:00

Charice Pempengco on Ellen

Charice Pempengco- I Will Always Love You

Charice Pempengco.. came across her randomly while uh.. 'vid hopping'? (was looking at magibon's hate vids.. LOL dun ask me what or who magibon is-_-)

she has got amazing voice!! go check out some of her vids.. (i mean Charice Pempengco, not magibon.. but well i guess u can say magibon has an.. amazingly annoying voice)

2008-03-01T04:52:00.001+08:00

i really hate the sound of phones vibrating...

2008-02-05T04:49:00.000+08:00

Hm. Seems like there's some conflict going on in my previous class in poly..
oh well. I just hope that the group I used to be so good with will stay strong. =)
(I doubt they read my blog. meh~)

2008-01-30T03:35:00.001+08:00

Listening to Mozart right nw... it's supposed to..erm.. enhance IQ? rofl. (I know.. I'm desperate.)

2008-01-28T06:38:00.001+08:00

gotta cramp 1 sem worth of info into my head within 28 hours. Hope I can do it.
(funny how when i'm supposed to study, i'm here blogging instead-.-")

2007-11-06T00:39:00.000+08:00

ARGH~!
I'm so pissed off at myself for having no self control. I thought i would have a lil bit more self control when my exam results came-.-"(GPA of 1.79? who wouldn't try to start studying harder?)
but no. Instead, I'm becoming worse.
The 1st half of the year, I attended most of my lessons, no matter how much i hated them (altho I was often late... but they always say better late than nvr.. right?)
ahem. so anyway, nowadays, I just skip school whenever I feel like it (which is just about everyday). Most of the time i gave myself the excuse that "i'm just too tired to go to school" but today, I realised, I'm not too tired to go to sch. I just lack the motivation. I acutally woke up at 8 am, and thought "i'll skip class and use the comp instead".
soooo, I thought up with a solution. That is, to make myself like someone from the class. then I'll look forward to seeing him everyday (yes him-.-.. lol. contrary to popular belief, I'm not les) but, there're 2 problems.

#1. I don't the names of the guys in my class.
yes. I know that is laughable. but.. It makes alot of sense right? after all, i've been skipping classes so much that I think that even my lecturers don't know I exist.

#2. How can i like someone when I dont even see that person alot?
this is a big problem. how do I actually make myself want to go to sch in the 1st place? and even if I go to sch, i'll be all anti-social and listen to my songs on my handphone-.-"

sigh. someone come up with another solution~!

(ok.. to admit the fact, I was joking about falling in love-.-".. but the fact that I havent been going to class is really a big problem. i guess my laptop is just too much of a distraction for me...)

2007-11-01T01:54:00.000+08:00

damn funny website i found
Click Here

2007-10-09T10:51:00.000+08:00

work. killed. me.

I worked yesterday night. it is killer.
The drinks are soooo heavy.
I had to carry tables, chairs and such. my hands!! they're dropping. Thank god i was doing buffet. which means i dun have to carry super heavy plates to the guests.

well, one thing that wasn't so bad was that the table i was allocated was rather friendly.

oh.. and people kept thinking i'm from china. gosh. I hate it when the chinese keep speaking with their accent and expect people to understand...

will be working again tonight. may God bless my hands and legs.

2007-10-02T19:51:00.000+08:00

Japanese... machines

go have a look. it's interesting... esp the one whis says used...er. nvm.. go read it urself^^

(found this web from the sgcafe forum.. lol.. interesting site)

2007-09-30T21:50:00.001+08:00

zomg... めちゃかわいい！wwwww.. チビせん。。。~.~

Hey! Say! 7

(sry if i dun make sense...lmao)

2007-09-25T16:56:00.000+08:00

Long time since i last updated><... here's something interesting to keep you entertained while waiting for my next post (which i'm quite sure would be months later><.. but you'll never know...w)

http://wyu.ulmb.com/

this is kigurumi... a type of cosplay... isn't it cute???? doesn't the person look like a doll??? ><
lmao.. actually, there's nth more to blog about.. so... またね！！＾＾

2007-07-31T23:52:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. It's been such a loooooong time since I last blogged. I don't even remember what my last blog post was about.

anyway, I have no idea what to blog about(as usual), and I only blogged cause.. Well cause Eileen made a blog, and so I wanted to get the "feel" back. Maybe I can revive (sort of...or maybe not revive cause it has never been alive) my blog by giving the link to this blog to my poly friends.

hmm.. from since I've started blogging till now, I've never knew what is so fun about blogging; and I think I'll never know. seriously!! Blogging is such a chore. I gotta type, make sure there are no mistakes(maybe not, but sometimes I do look through and make sure the "i" are in capitals just to make it look nicer) and also think about what to write. I suppose the only fun thing is trying to make my blog look nicer(something which I've attempted and failed). As I've said, the time used for blogging can be used fruitfully*. Don't you agree?

Well, life's been hectic ever since the start of poly life. Whoever said that poly is for slackers is totally right. It's a place that turns slackers into muggers. If you don't study, you fail. simple as that. I've been trying to get my self to study but it doesn't really work. I simply give in to temptation(audition, CS, The Sims 2!!) and abandon my attempt to study, and I probably shouldn't blog now, cause I have a biophysics test tomorrow and I should really go read on it. oh well, since I've already started, I might as well write a decent post.

I've also completed Elementary 1 Japanese class, But my mum refuses to let me go for Elementary 2. sigh. what's the point of being able to ask "これはいくらですか。”(how much is this?) when I don't really like shopping? I wanna be able to read manga-.- Anyway, I attended the graduation ceremony thingy and then they had this karaoke thing after that. I tried iichiko(i thought it was strawberry when they pronounced it) with oolong tea which tasted damn nice!! try it if you have the chance.

Alright. I'll think of more to blog about next time cause it's already 1 a.m.. おやすみなさい！！！

*opinions of fruitful might differ

2007-03-24T22:47:00.000+08:00

okay i'm blogging, thanks to that guy who wouldnt stop taggin on my tagboard about me not blogging. i seriously have no idea what to blog, oh well, lets just see where my ideas take me to.

Lately, the only thing i've been doing is using the computer. so there's really nothing much to talk about. Every single day, right after i wake up, right before i sleep, i'll be using the computer. I've actually positioned my computer right next to my bed, so that i can use it while sitting on the bed. oh yea.. i've also repainted my room. it's pink(with patches of white cause our painting skills sucks). how scary. it's like my blog skin (yea i'm gonna change it, i just have to find the right time to do that). pink wasn't my idea. it's just that there's some left over pink paint in my house and well why waste the money to buy another bucket of paint when you already have one at home?

School's starting very soon and i don't think i'm gonna get used to it. I've been so used to classrooms i have no idea how i would cope in poly. i totally have no idea what my course is about, except that it has biology(a subject i know nothing about), and that i might end up having to be a farmer for the attatchment. also, i have to choose one of the two options they provide in year two (choosing again! i might just go mad.).

hmm.. i've writen a considerably long post (well, it's long for my standards.) despite not knowing what to write in the 1st place. oh well. i have a feeling that no one will actually read pass this cause my writing is seriously too boring. i keep telling people i can't write but they don't believe it.. ugh!

2007-01-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

whee! I'm finally here to blog! cause i got a new computer! hahahaha
anyway, i just realised i almost totally forgot about every i've learnt in school... just earlier today, someone asked me "what's the double entry needed for a sales"... I couldn't answer, and it's supposed to be one my my best subjects!(Mrs Kelly Tan told me to do my worksheets.. haha) I'm in such a good mood that being i don't even mind being dumb.. haha...
anyway.. i really miss some of the teachers!... I don't really miss school(I hate school... the early hours kills me... and some of the teachers really just want us/me to disappear)..... i just miss my subjects... and i miss being happy at 2 o'clock.. haha.

(i bet no one reads this till at least 3 days later... or maybe no one would even see this at all.. it'll be here in my blog, collecting a layer of dust so thick that it can no longer be seen...)

2006-12-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

I was bored, so i went to deviantART to look at the fan art of sesshy (sesshoumaru).
and i found this pic of Sesshy and Kagome *dies totally*, drawn by a shipper...
it's really nice, but it's Kagome and Sesshoumaru...ugh... it would have been more perfect if it was Kagura. ugh.. I hope i can draw and colour like that, then i'll be able to use it for my blogskin... but i can't... ugh..

Speaking of blogskin... can anyone make me a blogskin? ugh.. i dunno how to make and i don't wanna share a blogskin with hundreds of people.....

2006-12-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

IN THE PAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU...
1) Cried: Nope
2) Worn jeans: Nope
3) Met someone: yep.. junting eileen gakei and "harry" (weixin)
4) Done laundry: Nope
5) Went hungry: Nope
6) Talked on the phone: Yep... with eileen -.-
7) Said I love you: Nope

DO U BELIEVE IN..
8) Yourself: hmmm... in some things...
9) Your friends: most of em
10) Tooth fairy: nope.... but if it's true, i'd have pulled out all my teeth...
11) Destiny/Fate: hmm.. never really thought about it
12) Ghosts: Nope.. you should ask eileen this
13) UFO: hmmm.. nope
14) Do you ever wished you had another name? no... it's too troublesome...(like when people don't pronouch ur name correctly on purpose)
15) Do you like anyone? ORLANDO!
16) Which one of your friends acts most like you? Hmmm... my best friend in the mirror...
17) When you cried the most who was there? me, myself and i
18) What's the best feeling in the world? hmmm... being happy
19) Whats the worst feeling in the world? feeling depressed........
20) What time is it now? 11.48 P.M.. that reminds me.... i missed inuyasha

WHICH IS BETTER?
21) Chocolate or vanilla: chotolate
22) Coke or pepsi: hmmm... they taste the same to me
23) Love or Lust: Love
24) Sprite or 7-Up: 7-up
25) Girls or guys: ermm... it depends
26) Scruff or Clean shaved: i'd like Orlando no matter how he looks..=D
27) Movies day or night: marathon... haha

The last time you...
28) Took a shower: hmmm... morning
29) Cried: last year?...

WHO
30) Make you smile: people who tells good jokes
31) Who can make you smile no matter what: hmmm... Edward... when i watch the anime...haha
32) Has a crush on you: dunno

DO YOU EVER...
33) Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call: nope. who'd call me?
34) Save AIM conversations: nope
35) Wish you were someone else: nope
36) Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: nope
37) Go online for longer than eight hours: yep... of course
38) Stucked in a lift: hmm.. yep
39) People you don't know and you went out with them: yep
40) Hate a person to the core that you wish that he/she will die immediately: nope..
41) Swear your parents or siblings: hmm.. it depends on my mood
42) Watch comics until you cry: nope.... i'm not that emotional

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
43) That you saw: mum
44) You talked to: mum
45) You hugged: dun remember
46) Instant messaged you: Eugene

DO YOU..
47) Color your hair: I WANT TO!!!!! hmmm tell me, what colour should i dye?
48) Have tattoos: nope
49) Have piercings: yep. one on both ears
50) Have on lipsticks: nope.
51) Own more than 10 pairs of flip flops: haha... what's the use of having so many when you can only wear one pair a time?
52) Like someone: My Family and Friends
53) Hate someone: yes.
54) Have any money on you: yes

Layer one - On the outside
Name: Joan
Birthdate: 19 August 1990
Current status: single.. duh
Eye color: Brown
Zodiac sign: Horse.

Layer two - On the inside
Your heritage: Chinese
Your fears: things that fly....
Weaknesses: hmmm..... shy?

Layer three - Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your first thought when you wake up: 'can i sleep longer?'
Your most missed memory: hmmm... my primary 5 and 6 days..

Layer four - Your Pick
Mac or KFC: KFC
Single or group dates: erm...
Adidas or Nike: either
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Lipton Tea
Cappucino or coffee: Cappucino

Layer Five - Do you
Smoke: Nope
Curse: yes
Take a shower: ehm.. yes?
Have a crush: lordy..
Think you`ve been in love: hmmm... maybe?
Like school: yes... when there's science and poa lessons...
Want to get married: hmm i dun really care..
Believe in yourself: i thought i did this already...
Think you`re a health freak: nope

Layer six - In the past month
Drank alcohol: nope
Gone to the mall: yep... bugis junction
On stage: No.
Sushi: nope..
Gone skating: Nope
Dyed your hair: Nope

Layer seven - Have you ever
Played a stripping game: haha... no
Changed who you were to fit in: huh?

Layer Eight - Getting old
Age you are hoping to get married: hmmm... i dunno
I LOVE: Anime... or Orlando... or Edward.
I FEEL: hmm...
I HATE: Being Scolded
I HIDE: my comics from my parents... altho it's quite difficult to do that..
I MISS: i missed inuyahsa...
I NEED: a computer!

2006-11-29T20:15:00.000+08:00

It's wednesday, and I still havent found a job. Well, I can only blame it on myself for not looking for one. i've been busy renewing firendships(going out with my primary school friends)for the past few days.(not all of them could make it on tuesday)

On tuesday, only me, phoebe and Damien were there. naturally, i felt like a light bulb. we went to Vivocity. There wasn't much shops for us poor people, and the place was rather confusing.(we walked the whole building just to look for an Ice cream store, and we still didn't find it. I suspect it's because Phoebe was the one leading us...) the only interesting thing was that pool(what Phoebe called "ka zui" which means "feet water") on the top story. we went to walk in it and we got chased by a boy..I was the only one who got splashed by him -.-....after that we went to cine, to look for ear rings(phoebe wanted it), and Damien had to be sarcastic, and act all interested, in that high pitched voice.-.- but it was fun though. Damien's flying to thai today, that's why i had to go out twice-.-...

Today, Phoebe Jia Yi and me went to escape. it's not fun at all.. most of the fun rides were not operating and we had to go on to the "rainbow" ride loads of times cause that was the only interesting thing that didn't require much queuing. thank God the ticket was only 6 bucks. If not i'd have felt so cheated.

alright, I think I'll blog till here. cyas

2006-11-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

Q1. Are you a chinese or english freak?
A1. I.HATE.CHINESE

Q2. If time is going to stop; what will you possibly do for that time?
A2. Read Manga, Watch anime and play sims 2

Q3. Prefer a playpool or playground?
A3. Playground... but i wanna play pool... lol

Q4. Do you usually gossip others; or being gossiped?
A4. i don't know

Q5. Do you like simple or complicated stuffs?
A5. hmm... complicated, but not too complicated

Q6. Do you tackle numbers better; or alphabets???
A6. numbers.

Q7. What makes you pissed off?
A7. people who doesnt admit they're wrong...

Q8. How's your childhood?
A8. ask my mum... i don't know

Q9. Do you have inspiration without perspiration?
A9. yeah... i get rashes with perspiration

Q10. Do you think 24 hours is too long, short or just okay?
A10. long for work, short for sleep and play

Q11. Would you judge people by their appearance?
A11. I think so.(damn... I'm so not in a blogging mood)

Q12. What is attractive in your eyes?
A12. something that looks like Orlando Bloom. or Edward

Q13. Do you like the day or night, explain why?
A13. Night, for a very simple reason: it's cooler

Q14. Do you treasure stuffs that you own, or you have insatiable desires?
A14. i just want a good computer and all the sim games

Q15. If your computer just hanged up; with a long long document not being saved;how will you react?
A15. normal. it happens always

Q16. Do you believe in miracles? Or was it longed predestined?
A16. i believe that miracles are predestined

Q17. Do you often tend to forget about the past; or trying hard to do so?
A17. i have a bad memory

Q18. In your mind, why colours are out here?
A18. hmmm... to make a difference between normal pple and people who are colour blind
(that might sound mean, but God can do miracles to them)

Q19. Have you ever pity those who are real pitiful; and shed tears for them; etc?
A19. no.

Q20. Describe yourself as in attitude.
A20. Weird.

Q21. Do you suddenly lose the grasp of hope to survive as yet?
A21. ...

Q22. Give 3 advantages when you get to live.
A22. to be able to read all the mangas, to be able to watch all the animes
to be able to play the sims. (how shallow can i get?)

Q23. What is your ambition in life?
A23. i'm like a leaf, flying wherever the wind guides me to, floating wherever the river takes me to.

Q24. Do you believe in horoscope etc?
A24. maybe.

Q25. Describe music in your life.
A25. essential

Q26. Which country you would like to go; when you can afford it?
A26. Japan.

Q27. What do you think blogging is about?
A27. telling your thoughts (for my case) and in the process boring everyone reading it

Q28. What kind of style you are trying to get hold off??
A28. none

Q29. When you fail a test, how will you react?
A29. it depends on what subject. if it's science, i'll ehm... tear the paper, if it's chinese, i'll... wait. i don't even take chinese tests.

2006-11-20T20:46:00.000+08:00

I promised I would blog after the exam, so here I am.

Today is officially the last day of my exams, and I think, today's paper is really easy. It's so easy, that I find it a waste of time. seriously, I could have slept longer, instead of waking up early in the morning.

Anyway, I'm looking for jobs right now, so that I'd be able to buy a computer and dye me hair. I'm still thinking if i should fix a computer myself, or buy one. Alright, I'll blog till here.

2006-11-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

hmm... I was in a "blog surfing" mood just now and i went to some of my friend's blog. When i went to Jun Hong's blog, i was like,"omg!" cause he had a maple story skin. Because of that, i decided to change my blog skin after the o levels. haha. i don't think i'll be making a maple story blog though....

anyway, i'm left with only two more papers, and then i'm officially free, which also means that i can come online with out feeling any guilt. the papers are pretty ok, and i really regret stdying for POA, cause it's so darn easy. lets just hope that my results matches what i say.....

2006-11-16T00:39:00.000+08:00

1. 5 years ago I was..
shorter, and more retarded

2. 5 snacks which I enjoy
cookies baked by my sis
DARK CHOCOLATES!!!!!!!!!!!!(or any other kind of chocolate)
sour plums
potato chips(anykind)
breakfast bars and honey stars...

3. 5 songs which lyrics I know
Call Me WhenYou're Sober
Breaking Free
Come What May
Random hillsongs
Random chinese duets(which i totally don't understand)

4. 5 things I will do if i have a million dollars
Go around the world to see y web friends(and ASHER!!!!)
Look for Orlando Bloom
Bribe the government to do away with chinese
Buy the best computer and the newest Sim Games
upgrade my computer when it gets a lil old

5. 5 places I would run away to
hmm.. Japan... to read the comics
other galaxies
other places where it's not so hot
Edward's world(where there's alchemy)

6. 5 things I would not wear
hmm... Alphonse(is that how you spell his name?) that Armor thingy in fullmetal alchemist
Kikyo's (that inuyasha's lover 50 years ago) ehmmm costume?
Psychic Academy's fighting suit..
Fencing Helmet
my mum's clothes

7. 5 bad habits
not being able to do anything in moderation
Procrastination
Spending all day watching Anime
doing nothing but using the computer all day

9. 5 biggest joy
Watching Anime
Reading Comics
Playing games on my n-gage
Playing sims 2
Playing online games

10. 5 famous people I would date
Orlando Bloom!!(sorry Thea, if you somehow get to see this... haha)
Johnny Depp!(sorry Ana and Jenny?)
Harry(not Dan)
hmm... Edward Elric(if only i could...)
Loki from Matentei (how the hell do you spell it?) Ragnarok Loki in his handsome adult form

2006-10-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

I'm finally in the mood to blog! Guess what I'm gonna write about. O level practical of course!

The practical wasn't too difficult, but I missed out some parts. Like the testing for the chlorine gas. I completely forgot to test for the gas. I guess that's because I was trying so hard to get the physics's gradient right(not that I managed to get it right. It's difficult to draw the best fit line while trying to get the gadient), I didn't have time to think about my chem like I did in my prelims. Well, at least I know I'll pass this paper, even if I don't ace it. It's okay actually, since practical is not what I'm good at.

Is this long enough? i hope it is... i don't know what else to blog about....

2006-10-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

I'm finally here to blog, even though i have totally no idea what to blog about...

hmm.... i added some games into my n-gage, and i totally loooove the games! i love wwp, i love asphalt 2, i love rayman.... and although i know i should be studying, i just couldn't resist the temptation of my n-gage.... i so chose the wrong time to add games into my n-gage..

ugh.. i so have no idea what to blog... i think.. one paragraph will do.. right?

2006-09-30T12:33:00.000+08:00

whee! it's the end of the prelims and i've got back all my results... and i know i have not been updatiing enough... if i would give an excuse, i would say i have been busy preparing for y prelims... but i wasnt.. so i have no excuse... lol....anyway, though my results is not what i really wish for(19 points for L1R2B2.. where the hell can i go?) but it's still something that many people would hope to reach... i shall post up my marks for everyone to see... not because i wanna be proud like MDM YEO would say.. but it serves as a reflection is i would ever look into my older posts a few months later(what i mean is when we get back our o levels)...

English-50.5/100 C6(and Dr still said that we all improved by 40%... i think what "improved" is her maths...)

Humanties-53/100 C6( well, i got 20/50 for ss and 33/50 for geog... at least i can scrape a c6)

Maths-64.5/100 B4(if i got another 0.5 mark... i would have gotten a B3.. but i didn't)

Science- 70.3/100 A2(this is the most disappointing paper... i acually got a 65 for my chem.... i so wanted an A1...)

POA- 87.5/100 A1(the only thing up to standard.. and my mum says i did not do so well for this paper cause i should have gotten 90+... is she crazy or what?)

CLB(if you count this a subject)-about 70+ i think... cause i dont know my oral marks...( i think this is the only paper i managed to improve in..)

well, that's all... i hope i can get into top 20 for the whole school, then i can get that $500 and i'll use it to get a new computer.....

2006-09-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

This afternoon, while using my sister's computer, I opened a stalk from bridge(to hpana). and I was utterly shocked.

on the 3rd of september(or earlier. the post was posted on 3/9/06), Hannah, a fan of the Harry potter series, passed away. She had pulmonary hypertension for about a year and was sent to the hospital recently because it was getting worse. After a while, they thought she was better and took her home. but something happened to her lungs and she died. I can't believe I teared when i read about her going.

It's so sad. she's still so young(not used to writing in past tense). She didn't get to read the last harry potter book. Some of her fics are still incomplete. and she's such a great writer! i really have no idea what to say other than that i regret not knowing her better. i'll be posting the links to her fics....

Steve Irwin that crocodile guy died on the 4th of this month. he was killed by a stingray and it's really ironic that a guy like him gets killed this way. i mean. he's been in contact with so many dangerous animals, and he gets killed not by them, but by a stingray. It's really unfortunate that
the stingray had to attack him in the chest. if it was anywhere else, i bet he would have lived.

you know, this really makes people think. millions of people are dying everyday and you'll never know. one day it might be you, me or people around you. i might die in a car crash tomorrow or something. we should do the things we like to do instead of doing things that we were called to do. we live for ourself, not for others. it might be too last to regret if you don't get to do what you like.

some of Hannah's fics
If You Don't Know How-http://www.hpana.com/forums/topic_view.cfm?tid=70881&p=3
The Longest Time-http://www.hpana.com/forums/topic_view.cfm?tid=68628
Madam Malfoy-http://www.hpana.com/forums/topic_view.cfm?tid=71471
Black As Sin-http://www.hpana.com/forums/topic_view.cfm?tid=71547

i couldn't find her older fics.

After all, to the well-organised mind, death is but the next great adventure.

2006-09-03T19:48:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the lack of posts, been busy playing Maple Story and cleaning up my room. A few days ago, my sis came back from melbourne. Now I have to share my room with my 2nd sister and I'm still adapting to the change. My room now looks as though a tornado just swept through it. It's so chaotic despite the many attempts to neaten it. It so can't house 2 people.

Anyway, my dad signed a new contract for the internet and now there's wireless access. I'm not sure if he's getting a wireless modem or a router though. It doesnt really concern me in anyway now cause I still don't have a laptop. But it's gonna make things more convinient after i get my laptop.

Alright, I'm off to play maple now.

2006-08-25T19:22:00.000+08:00

My prelims started yesterday. We did both paper 1 yesterday... I'm not sure if I'll pass my english, but I'm sure I'll fail my chinese. the Geography paper was today. I think I might pass, but I don't think i can get an A. Eileen read one question wrongly. she wrote impacts instead of causes. I hope that's not gonna kill her. I'll have to look at my social studies (that killer paper) to know if I'l pass my humanities.
The next paper (maths and social studies) is on monday. I hope they don't set the standard too high. I don't want a "fail" on my report book.

2006-08-23T22:32:00.000+08:00

An email from Maz...(so sweet!):

Dude, I wanted to wish you a happy 16th borthday!!!
*confetti*
*streamers*
*champagne*
Dude, I've missed you!! You need to come back onto hpana! *tries to drag Joanie through computer screen*
I hope you had an awesome day. I know by now over there it's tomorrow, but here in sunny (*snorts*) England it's quarter to ten at night, so it's technically still your birthday. So technically this isn't late!! Hehehe.
Love you dude! And missing you so much.
*huggles*Mazxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I love you too! thanks anyway.. haha.. I just thought that was sweet(despite the fact that I read it like 4 days after my "borthday") actually, it still says "19 august" on the e-mail date

2006-08-21T20:32:00.000+08:00

I had my english oral today. It was fairly easy but I had to lie. The passage was about someone giving physiotherapy. The reading was okay, I accidentally skipped some words though. I hope that's not gonna pull me down. The picture looks like a scene in a old folks home. There's this old lady doing exercise with her hands on this machine which looks like the pedal of a bicycle. There's another lady helping her with the machine. I said something like"it's good that the only lady is doing exercise as it helps prevent diseases which might cause her to be a burden to the society."Then I commented about the lady helping her, saying that she is patient to her and that's the attitude everyone should have when interacting with the elderly. but in the first place, she doesnt even look patient. I guess I'm just applying what i learnt in english lesson: there's no right or wrong answer. There's another old lady in the picture, reading a newspaper. i remember saying something like we should be like her, updating herself with news when we get old. I also remember saying something like old fashioned although i have no idea how the hell i linked that to the picture. Then there was the conversation. The 1st part was about sports. I was asked what sports I liked to do, and obviously, I had to lie. I said I loved going to the gym (blatent lie) and i loved walking( I do... without the sun, that is). from there, we went on talking about the positive impacts of exercising and I said something like it keeps us healthy and makes out mind alert( total bullshitting). The second topic was about how we sould treat the elderly. I mentioned about the classic example of giving up seats. The examinor asked another question and i kinda like answered halfway, and forgot what i was gonna say and forgot what the question was. Fortunately, the teacher prompted me and I was able to answer. alright. I'll stop here and go to sleep

2006-08-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

After many days of not blogging, I finally decided I should blog before everyone leaves my blog. and what a great time it is to blog too, when I'm feeling dizzy, It's as if I just threw my head into a test tube and shook it vigorously( like i did to that copper oxide thing just now).

Today I got back my social studies paper, and I got 3 out of 13. how nice. I had to do that damned question again. Ugh. I so suck at social studies. Maybe I really should start studying.

Anyway, during Chinese, my head suddenly hurt alot and when I went to physics lab, I felt like I was on a boat, which was about to topple into the sea. That was why I was sleeping. Mdm yeo scolded me a few times and I couldn't even be bothered to reply. (actually, I didn't know who she was talking to... I couldn't see) She scolded eileen who was sitting beside me too. Now Eileen is determined to get an A1 for physics, just to prove her wrong (go girl!).

The most interesting lesson today was the chem lesson. We had practical! I did it alone. It was "shiok"! I could do most of the tests, except for the one where we had to put Hydrochloric acid into the green Copper (II) Carbonate. the reaction was so fast that I didnt have time to test for the gas. but I guess it was Carbon Dioxide (because of the Carbonate ion). Alright, I guess I shall stop here before you run away from my blog because of all the work I mentioned....

2006-08-11T16:56:00.000+08:00

Went to Eugene's blog and found out that i'm supposed ot do this.-.- well, i'm not complaining.. as least now i dun have to think of what to blog...

1. Full name: Tan Xiao Yan Joan
. Name backwards: naoj nay oaix nat..(wth??)
3. Were you named after someone: No.. or that person would be dead by now.. honestly, whay kind of name is "Xiao Yan"? and it was even pernouced wrongly..-.-
4. Meaning of name: Joan means God is gracious i think...
5. Nickname: Joanie, Stalker, birdie, ah siao...
6. Screen name: n0t_a9a1n, Joanified
7. D.O.B: 19.08.1990
8. Place of birth: some hospital(i forgot)
9. Nationality: Singaporean
10. Current location: Study Room (which doesn't even look like a study room)
11. Star sign: Leo
12. Religion: I don't know..ok... i once was a christian but i backslided from church.. what does that make me? i know that going to church doean't mean i'm a christian... but.. ugh.. this kind of thing confuses me...-.-
13. Height: 164.5
14. Weight: 58kg?
15. Shoe size: dunno leh... but it's largae than most females
16. Hair colour: Black
17. Eye colour: Brown (yes it is)
18. Who do you look like: my reflection,.. ok.. people say i look like da chang jing -.-(and i don't ..)
19. Innie or Outtie: wtf?... i stand at the door way
20. Leftie or rightie: Rightie
21. Gay, straight, bi or others: slightly curverd-.-.. no.. i'm straight-.-
22. Best friends: those pple i always hang out with lor.. like Eileen, Junting, Jiaqi, Huili, blablabla
23. Best friends you trust most: i trust those who i think don't lie to me
24. Favourite pals: what's the difference?
25. Best friend of opposite sex: Junting?(JiaEn dun kill me)
26. Best buddies: dunno?
27. Boyfriend or girlfriend: none...
28. Crush: *ahem*
29. Parents: Yep...
30. Worst enemy: my lazyness
31. Favourite online guy: online guy?.. oh.. i just realised i dun have much online friends who are guys... ehmm Max i suppose?
32. Favourite online girl: Can there me more than one? Maz, Natalie, Corvis & Ana(they so come in a pair!) and their kids!(they look soooo adorable), there's more.. but i can't be bothered to type..lol
33. Craziest friend: Huili.. haha... we can so be crazy together
34. Advice friend: i keep problems to myself most of the time..
35. Loudest friend: ehm.... huili.. hahahahaha
36. Person you cry with: myself... not that i always cry...
37. Any sisters: Yep, 2.. one in Aussie, one Staying with me
38. Any brothers: Nope
39. Any pets: Nope.. i thik pets are adorable tho
40. Any disease: huh??
41. Pagers: who the hell still uses pagers?
42. Personal phone line: well, i have a phone line in my room which is linked wth my sister's room... but i don't use it
43. Cell phone: Yes
44. Lava lamp: No, my sis has one green lava lamp tho, and it's totally cool when the hot lava rises and the cold ones sinks
45. Pool or hot tub: Pool(this so reminds me of sims 2.. woohoo in hottub.. hahahahaha)
46. A car: i dun really care.. i just want one next time
47. Your personality: Optimistic?
48. Driving: Nope
49. Room: ??? do i look like a hotel?
50. What's missing: huh?
51. School: Hua Yi Secondary School
52. Bed colour: white and pink
53. Relationship with parents: it's ok.. shouting does increase ur relationship..-.-
54. Believe in yourself: Yep
55. Believe in love at first sight: no, unless i get to experience it
56. Good listener: ehmm i dun really know.. what do you think?
57. Get along well with parents: i scream at my parentsa sometimes but that's it..
58. Save email convos: nope
59. Pray: Rarely... unless i really think that only miracles would work things out
60. Believe in reincarnation: nope
61. Make fun of people: Yes.. seriously, who doesn't?
62. Like to talk on the phone: nope.. hlding the phone next to my ears give me rash..-.-
63. Want to get married: It depends to who
64. Like to drive: i have yet to try driving..(real driving.. not daytona)
65. Motion sickness: yep..
66. Eat stem of broccoli: Yuck
67. Eat chicken with fork: Yes.
68. Dream in colour: i suppose so...
69. Type with your fingers on home role: huh???
70. Sleep with stuff animals: used to but it always ends up on the floor
71. Next to you: laptop
72. On the walls of your room: a space to put my PotC poster, some anime poster..
73. On your mousepad: a mouse
74. Dream car: anything that's good
75. Dream date: .. ORLANDO BLOOM!!! *dies*
76. Dream honeymoon spot: anywhere... i wouldn't care where i am.. i would care who i'm with...
77. Dream husband or wife: ehm...
78. Bedtime: not b4 10
79. Under your bed: dust
80. Single most important question: dunno?
81. Bad time of a day: 2500... if there is such a time
82. Your worst fear: sutcked in a room with something that flies
83. The weather is: hot
84. Time: 5.30pm
85. Date: 11 August 2006
86. Best trick did on someone: Can't remember
87. Theme song: is the PotC song counted?
88. Hardest thing about growing up: what's so hard? i don't even have to do anythinjg...
89. Funniest experience: dunno leh... everything is funny to me-.-
90. Scariest experience: dunno?
91. Silliest thing you have ever said: dun remember...
92. Most desperate and funniest thing i have done to get the opposite sex: dun remember
93. Scariest thing while you are with your friends: dun remember
94. Worst feeling: seeing someone in trouble and yet not being able to help
95. Best feeling in the world: knowing it's bedtime.. lol
96. AND NOW THE SABOTAGING BEGINS!!! CHOOSE EIGHT TO DO THE QUIZ!!!
ehmm... weiya.. i dun thingk anyone else who have a blog comes to my blog right?

2006-08-09T20:02:00.000+08:00

alright... i finally updated....i feel so refreshed after a LONG nap...anyway, i'm watching the NDP now and listening to this year's national day song... and now it's the fireworks... Eileen went to Esplanade to watch i think...why am i blogging about this?
nvm...
i went to Eugene's birthday party yesterday.. it's his birthday today! the party was in east coast park. most of them met in school to take the bus that Eugene rented, but i was late so i too 196 instead... the bus was so damn slow and the bus driver stopped at everystop even when no body wanted to get up or get off. Then i got off the bus and took another bus thinking that it would lead me nearer to the bbq pit, but i was wrong... i alighted at area E and the pit was at area B... and so i walked from one end of the park to the other... it was soooo tiring man.When i got there, everyone was playing blades and riding on bikes.. and i was so tired that i didnt want to rent a bike...anyway, after the fire was up, we ate and talked and do the things you would do in a bbq...yep... it was fun.. and there was this little gilr.. her name was lynette (i dunno how to spell-.-) or something... she's like sooo cute!... she was staring at the sky, waiting for fireworks. She's sooo cute!... after the bbq, JunTing ,JiaEn, JiaQi, HuiLi, Michael, GengZhong, GuoLiang, WeiXin and me went to Geng Zhong's house in Bukit Panjang... Mc, Gz, Gl and Wx played daidi for the whole night.. i had to sleep cuz i woke up damn early for that lame speech day(that reminds me.. i got 2 $10 vouchers for kinokuniah! that means i can buy 4 comics!!)then in the morning, we called mcdonalds delivery... i couldn't finish my milo -.-... then after dat , most of us went home... and i bath and then used the comp and slept.....

2006-08-04T18:40:00.000+08:00

pffft.. got chased out of band room today.. lol. To think i was once a band member.. anyway, you might ask, what was i doing in the band room? lol.. well, i was planning to play the flute! yes.. flute... i really wanna learn an insturment and i think that flute is really nice(although a bit difficult).. and that's why i went to band.. to see eileen and her section playing, without the conductor(sectional practice today).. haha... well, i really wanna learn the pirates of the caribbean song.. it's like so nice(not just because i like the movie, or someone in the movie... lol). you should hear eileen play it!... this post shall end lamely here... cuz i have no idea what to blog about

2006-08-02T19:51:00.000+08:00

Social studies is a wery weird subject, and i'll tell you why... i got back my ss paper today and found out that i failed 5/12(expected). but that's not all.. i also found out that i got full marks for the 1st question, (a), which is L4/5... and i totally screwed up my second question, (c). i didn't even get one mark.... it's the only subject that i can do very well in, and yet do very badly in.. if you get what i mean....

2006-08-01T20:37:00.000+08:00

i have to go soon so this post might be another post that is only readable by people who can read alien...

whee!!!!!!!!! i'm soooooooo happy! i finally got to watch PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!and i think i'm getting crazy... lol... everytime i think about the movie(or about Orlando Bloom), i start grinning stupidly to myslef... hahahaha.. anyway, i soooo hate keira knightly... ugh.. she kissed Orlando Bloom in the first movie and she kissed Johnny Depp in the second.. (in other words, i'm jealous.. get it?..lol)..ugh.. to think i actually liked her(as in thought she was quite good in the movie.... i'm not lesbian).... lol
when the movie was starting, i made eileen scream.. lol.. it was soooo funny.. and when Orlando came out, i was like "omg omg omg"... wahahahahhahahahaha and captain jack was FREAKING HILARIOUS.. the way he ran and his "ham ji" personality.. hahaha .. gosh.. i think i should stop here... if not i'll really go mad.........hahahahahahahahhahahahahaha...
*grins stupidly*

2006-07-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

It's sunday, and i'm kinda dreading tomorrow, cause i have no idea what will happen to me. Tomorrow, the "hei mu er" might come and look for me, cause i haven't been going to CLB lessons. Nobody informed me about clb lessons and i dun even know if they were on the last few weeks. ugh. I'm not gonna care so much. oh, and the councellor might look for me too, because of that DC that i got a few weeks ago, the one that i mentioned in the earlier posts. I've been "busy" these few days so i haven't been able to clear it. darn. I pray that i will be okay tomorrow....or maybe someone can help me think up of some excuses? lol.

Anyway, the whole of today, i was listeneing to Madonna , Eminem and Michelle Branch on my CD player... ugh. I'll have to live with these few CDs for the time being....

Just now, i was watching a movie on channel 5. I have no idea what the name of the movie is, but i think it's quite interesting and i really think that the message the movie gave is really true... the movie is about this guy, who only cared about the looks of the opposite sex. one day, he met this guy in the lift and the guy changed his perspective totally, and made him see the inner beauty of others. So whenever he saw a girl with great inner beauy, he will see a hot chick instead of who the person really looks like.. and when he sees someone with real bad personality, he will see a totally ugly person instead of the person himself/herself. so he found this real beautiful girl and couldn't see y everyone was so mean to her, cuz she's so "beautiful". He didn't know what happened to him until his friend "saved" him from his by saying a phrase(forgot the phrase... bad memory.. i can't even remember his name). That was when he realised that the girl wasn't a hot chick. He was so afraid that he whould not like her anymore after seeing her figure that he kept avoiding her... but of course, movies like this always have a happy ending and he obviously still ended up with her. yep... this really reflects on how the society is. If you're ugly, prepare urself for the many uglier comments you'll get from people. If you're pretty, then good for you.(i might have got parts of the story wrong because i was multi-tasking. Doing my POA while watching.)

By the way, my sis managed to get a geog text book from her friend!... I should be very grateful to her friend, cause he kinda like dug the textbook from the rubbish bin. lol. He threw the book away three hours before my sis asked him about the book. I must be damn lucky that the book could still be retrived from the bin. I hope that it won't smell of rotten fishes or mouldy BREAD...haha

2006-07-29T19:57:00.000+08:00

can anyone tell me how to get money quick? i need to get so many things by the next month.... i need a MMC... it isn't a want anymore... ugh.. i get dizzy when i dun have anything to distract me when i'm on the bus... i need music..
i need contact lenses... ugh... i was thinking that i should buy this after i bought everything i wanted.. but MR LEE has to interfere... i have to get one pair of contact lenses by next friday or he'll bring me to make one... and i wouldn't want that..
i wanna watch PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN...(i wanna see Orlando Bloom.. wahahah) i don't know how i'm gonna afford a mmc after i watch potc... ugh...i need money...

2006-07-26T18:55:00.000+08:00

ugh... last monmday or friday, i dropped my MP3 player while chasing the bus.. and for a while the screen couldn't work . i felt like i was using an ipod shuffle...... then after school, the screen came back.. omg.. i was like so happy, i was even thanking God(haven't done that for a VERY long time). but the next day, when i turned on the MP3, half the screen was black... ugh... i had to turn the mp3 on and off a few times to get the screen to be ok.. but yesterday, turning the damn thing on and off didn't work, so what did i do? i stupidly hit the MP3 violently( do not judge me too harshly... i was pissed off with that thing.. and it could sustain the many "falls" it experienced, i thought a few violent hits wouldn't do mush harm)... till it turned off by it self.. and afterthat, i couldn't on it again... sigh... now i'll have to get an mmc earlier or i'll have to live with having no mp3.... i wonder what my dad/ mum would do to me if they found out what happened.........

anyway, today we had an NE quiz... and it quite interesting, despite being an NE quiz...lol... it was quite unclear tho.. or maybe it's just me who's unclear.. lol... i thought that i could use all the funds i collected at the end, but no... when i finished all the questions, i realised that i couldn't build anymore.... ugh... but it's ok... at least i got 300k points.... (senior builder or something like that)... tomorrow i'm having a maths competition thing.... wish me luck!

2006-07-20T17:36:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna go for speech day.... it's like so troublesome...

1. I have to wear my collar badge.(i totally forgot that the collar badge was part of the uniform... and i have no idea where i left mine ...)

2. I have to buy a new pair of sock...(although i'm the only 1 who have to buy a new one because mine is like ruined.... there's no way i can pull my current socks up without showing everyone the big hole on it)

3. There are like so many rehersals, and seriously, they are a waste of time.. (imagine going up the stage to shake hands and say "good moring" and "thank you" and then bowing... again and again..)

4. It'll be so embarrasing if i did anything wrongly. I know that the rehersals are to perfect everything, but i really don't think that i'm gonna remember everything that day. It's the 1st time i reciving prizes on stage and i think i'm gonna be nervous...it's a good thing i dun have stage fright...(actually, i don't know if i have stage fright. I've not been on stage for a very long time..)

5. Eventhough i'm supposed to be rewarded, i feel like i'm being punished. staying back in school for so long... i was supposed to go for my DC but i didn't and now my DC is being postponed again... i want to clear my DC....

i hope i can be sick next wendesday and on the 8/8.......

2006-07-18T15:40:00.000+08:00

got a news from Miss Tracy that i topped my combined science( she didn't say about POA). i have to go for rehersal on thursday( i dun really mind... i have dc that day...lol). i bet those who were in the same class in me when i was sec one would have thought this impossible, because i used to compete for the last in class...lol... miss roberts would've been shocked too(if she knows).. i used to fail her science papers... damn.. i hate her cause she's like SUPER bias... but that's outta the point.. the speech day is on 8/8.... i hope they give me vouchers for popular or any other bookstore cuz i need a geog textbook...

2006-07-17T18:32:00.000+08:00

lol.. i so dun wanna be"helped"by my english teacher. What is wrong with laughing i seriously dunno... ugh...
i think the one who needs help is her.. i mean, she's so easily agitated (that poor girl who got scolded.. lol...)
she says she the "guru".. jt says she is the "garang guni"LOL
the way she prounouces "earth" is so freaking hilarous..ok.. maybe not the was she pronouces it, but the way jt imitate the way she pronouce it... lol... it sounds like she got constipation..lol

(this is such a pointless post but at least i;m postring right??)

2006-07-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

ugh... ignore that last post... i was feeling a little weird...
hmm... I realised i haven been studying much these few weeks and so i decided to do some studying just now. I opened my maths tys and attempted a few questions. Then i decided it was too difficult to study without any drive, so i stop doing and started playing tony hawk's pro skater on my n-gage... ugh. Guess i need fail some tests so that i wll feel guilty and start studying....

2006-07-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

I'm so confused right now. Why is it that others can cope with what i''m feeling now? where do people get the kind of courage to overcome their fear? I'm so lost, and i've been thinking alot today. I need help, and i have no idea where to get it from. Maybe if i just totally ignore that feeling, it will go away...

2006-07-11T19:26:00.000+08:00

ugh.. this week has been so typical (post edited... DR Thuraisingam said we should not use the word"boring") that i dun even know what i can blog about... the only major event i know of to blog about is the world cup finals, but i dun even know who the hell won the cup.. so lets just forget about it..

well, here's one thing that doesn't concern me. some of my classmates had their chinese oral exam yesterday and today, heard yesterday's topic was easy... well, this doesn't concern me as i'm taking CLB for some reason i don't know. I mean, i dun understand why we can't just drop the subject and be happy for the rest of my secondary school life, not having to worry about chinese. Okay... before anyone talks to me about China opening up it's economy, i'll like to say that i've been failing chinese since i can remember... What difference will CLB make? it's not like it'll make me anymore interested in chinese. Anyway, i'll still forget what i learn in Secondary school CLB lessons when i graduate; and the lessons are not that interesting. There was once we were called to help fold cards instead of having lessons. last week, we didnt even have a teacher watching over us. We were ALLOWED to copy each other's answer. What's worse is that CLB is not considered an O level subject, so why would i even care about a subject that doesn't help me in getting into a school/course i want? i doubt anyone would be motivated to study CLB properly(except for those who can get into a JC, cause they need to pass CLB to get into one. and i can't go to a JC, because of the stupid subject combinations.. if i retained, i could have like one or 2 subjects more, but that's another matter.). So what's the point of Clb? i don't understand....

2006-07-09T19:20:00.000+08:00

i'm watching Pirates of the Caribbean now... gosh.. it's so nice that i can watch it over and over again... Johnny Depp is such a good actor... i loved the way he played Captain Jack Sparrow... and there's Orlando bloom too!!!... i hope Thea and Corvis won't come to my blog unexpectedly....lol...or i might die after making that orlando bloom comment.. lol

i'm gonna watch Dead Men's Chest with my primary school friends... i hope it's nice!

2006-07-08T21:53:00.000+08:00

my sister got a job in aussie, that means she's not coming back... i dunno if that's good or bad...
if she's not coming back, i can't see her... but if she is coming back, i'll have to share my room with my 2nd sis...

2006-07-08T00:58:00.000+08:00

*yawns*.. i'm so damn tired now, but i'm still blogging cause i want to write down what happened today before i forget...

1) i made contact lenses!
woohoo! that means no more sitting in front with mr lee... hahahaha... you can see my scary eyes on monday...lol.. it's green... doesn't it remind you of Harry Potter?(not weixin)

2) i went to jurong lake park for the first time...
lol.... jurong lakepark was sooo fun... but it was hot, sandy, and filled with ants... ok.. that's not the point... i had alot of fun and reached home at about 11++... i climbed up the triangular spiderweb thingy, went on the swing, jumped on the tramboline(is that how you spell it?), went on two spinny thingys ( and fell down from both of them...-.-") and rode a seesaw... lol... i must be damn high today.. lol

oh.. and i had lame clb today... i handed in totally half hearted work..lol.. i only did half of the questions and did it just for the sake of handing in... lol...i can so prepare for a scolding next friday... or if the teacher is good, i might be able to lie my way through.....

2006-07-04T16:09:00.000+08:00

i've always thought that i wouldn't meet a teacher i hated more than my maths teacher (i don't think i'm allowed to blog out the name..) anyway, apperantly, i was wrong... i recently found out that i hated my physics teacher lots more than i hate my maths teacher.......

i used to hate my maths teacher cause she's the most petty person i've ever seen.. she whould get jealous very easily(jealous of one of the maths teacher... bah), and scold people for the weirdest reason ever...she doesn't like to lose, and it really irritates me cause sometimes she really is wrong.....(it's not like i like her now, but i think meeting my physics teacher made me discover the good in my maths teacher)

my physics teacher is just as unresonable.... she like to throw tantrums and when she does that, she ask for really unresonable answers which can sometimes get really childish.....( asking us to give her 10 reasons why we did something and refusing to accept any of our reasons... isn't this something that we always hear primary school kids say?...).and she's totally against me... she loves scolding me for some reason..maybe she's having her menopause now... but i guess we're even since i hate her too...
oh and she gets jealous too... she's jealous of my form teacher and my chemistry teacher..... she keeps asking me why we treat them better than her... i think it's because the age gap between us is not so big... but my physics teacher just doesn't understand this...ugh...

2006-07-02T15:26:00.000+08:00

i changed( highlight the "ed"... lol) the pic of my template...now i think my blog is too pinkish.... stupid tinypic compressed the image, making it so blur, and photobucket wouldn't work... ugh!!!

2006-07-01T00:40:00.000+08:00

ugh...

Seven things that make me smile
1)when i scream at people..and they look shocked
2)Dr Thuraisingam...(LOL)
3)Eileen, JiaQi, Huili, JunTing, Guoliang and Michaet i suppose....
4)When i Listen to "no more birds" LOL...(uncle, le wu jiao bo?)
5)music!
6)when people compliment me..
7)anything that's funny....

.Seven things to do to win my heart.(god... this is difficult... can i just ignore this?)
1)i guess you have to impress me..
2)be different?
3)ehmm....not be irritating...
4)have a good sense of humor
5)ugh...
6)ugh...
7)urgh...(with an r)
lol

Seven things that I believe in.
1)that the world is screwed up...
2)that respect is earned.... not demanded (mdm yeo should so know this... pft)
3)equality
4)Hardwork
5)that you reap what you sow
6)that rules are meant to be broken(it's true... God gave us rules which is meant to be broken... this proves that humans are inferior... cuz they cant follow rules or something like that)
7)ugh... i spenmt like 10 minutes thinking...

Seven things that scare me.
1)birds flapping their wings...
2) butterflies
3)moths
4)basically, things that fly.. lol
5)someone close to be dying...
6)some one close to me going to jail.
7)having no hair..(my hair is droppin, if you didnt know..)

.Seven things I spend my time doing everyday
1)using the computer
2)deciging if i shoud do my homework
3)Listening to music
4)comb my hair and get freaked out by the amount of hair on the comb...
5)laughing.
6)sing in the privacy of my room... lol
7)drinking...(you know this is just to fill up the space)

Seven people I want to see right now.
1)sista... she's coming back on 17 july... that's when i will lose my privacy... have to share my room... ugh(she's in melbourne)
2)Ana and Corvis... the two funniest people(and maybe their children!)
3)Natalie and Christie(from western aussie)
4)Orlando bloom(i hope Thea and Corvis doesn't see this)
5)Thea and Arie(i dunno where they stay..) and Maz
6)most of the people from HPANA and AnCor(that includes 1,2 and 5)
7)hmm.... my priamry sku friends...

Seven people I want to do this quiz

i doubt more than 7 people come to my blog... so i shall not do this question

2006-06-29T18:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. copied this from Christie's blog.. i'm supposed to BOLD the things that apply to me and add one fact about me right at the bottom .....
001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own lots of books.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses
007. I love to play video games.
008. I’ve tried marijuana.
009. I’ve watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I believe honesty is the best policy.
013. I have acne free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby
018. I’ve been told I have a nice butt. I tell myself that every day.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I’ve never broken anyone else’s bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain.(sometimes ... that;s y it bold-ed halfway)
024. I’m paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way that I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.(shhhh))
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.(mdm yeo says so)
043. I think prostitution should be legalised.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent(would i know if it's hidden?)
.047. I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I think that I’m popular.
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.... haha
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I’m obsessed with my blog!
058. I don’t hate anyone.
059. I’m a pretty good dancer.
060. I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
061. I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a mobile phone.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I’ve rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.*dies*
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I’ve had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
076. I’m not allergic to anything deadly.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube’s newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am shy around the opposite sex.(i'm shy around anyone i don't know well....)
081. I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I have tried alcohol before.
084. I have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past.(you have to be a total bitch to do that)
085. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie.
086. I have avoided assignments to be on my blog.
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I am a Uni student
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
.093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story".
096. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
097. I watched Spongebob Squarepants and I liked it.
098. I have dated a close friend’s ex.
099. I’m happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
(lol....)
102. I’ve kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t.
103. I play a musical instrument.(is a triangle counted? lol... i used to play Cello)
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I’m procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I’m obsessed with the tv show "Lost."
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
114. I think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd.
117. No matter where I am or who I’m with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I don’t change who I am for someone else.
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I am a Senior in High School.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have gastritis.
124. I have nothing better to do with my time.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Most people call me by my middle name.
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. Pi confuses me.
129. I love NASCAR!
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.132. I have mono.
132. I don’t have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor.
134. I’m only wearing underwear.
135. I had more than one Thanksgiving dinner this year.
136. I’ve drove to a different state to see a band I like.
137. I am the most overanalytical person I know.
138. I believe in wasting time.
139. I don’t listen to much music.
140. I have a shoe fetish.
141. My favorite holiday isn’t Christmas.
142. I prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.
143. I love sex.
144. I wanna go home
145. I don’t know what I would do without my friends
.146. Christmas threw up in my dorm room and I love it.
147. Friends is my favorite TV show
.148. I can touch my nose with my tongue.
149. On most days, I like my job.
150. I need a new piercing or tattoo.
151. Been embarrassed by the number of people you’ve slept with.
152. I still use the phrase "When I grow up".
153. I have a need to use phrases and words from the 80’s to "relive my youth."
154. I’ve given birth without pain killers of any sort.
155. I would do anything for my husband.
156. I go to the gun range to relieve frustration.
157. My name is Mindy, but I’ve never met Mork.
158. I want to get my drivers licence next year.(if only i can...)
159. My passion is art
160. 160 questions was a waste of my time.
161. i'm always tired...

2006-06-29T00:20:00.000+08:00

LOL.... school today was damn funny... all thanks to DR THURAISINGAM. I shall not elaborate
there's nothing to blog about except that i know i'm so getting into trouble for not doing my POA. I hope Mrs Tan doesn't murder me or something. it's the first time i didn't do my POA homework.

Friendship

2006-06-22T03:03:00.000+08:00

Friendship is such a vulnerable thing.
One person may be so close to his or her friend right now, but the next second, everything just won't go right between the two of them.
Maybe it might be better not to get to know the person who used to be your friend in the first place. Since it's always the person closest to you that will hurt you the most, Maybe with the absence of such person, you won't feel so much hurt. But with out friends, can we survive?

2006-06-18T13:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm... i haven't been blogging much these few weeks so i think i should just update my blog... but it's not like anyone's reading my blog right? i'm just blogging to say out my feelings.. so it doesn't really make a difference...
during the holidays i haven't been studying much... i guess i should.... but it's the holidays!... and we're supposed to take a break from studying... but i can't help feeling a bit guilty... i've been watching inuyasha and i really loooooove it! why can't inuyasah just get over kikyo?.... i'm at episode 85 but youtube removed the episodes so i'm kinda like stucked there...i've also been reading naruto... it's the same as the anime except that come come paradise is flirting paradise in the anime..

anyway, went out with my primary school friends on friday! it's been like 3 years since i last saw them... and it was fun!! Phoebe, Damien, Shannon, Li Chien, Jia Yi and me went... too bad Vivien wasn't there... i have sooo missed her. Phoebe was sooo funny..., she was like a monkey... haha...we had initially planned to go to sentosa but it rained in the morning so we had a change of plans.... we went to orchard instead... wanted to watch movie but i wasn't of age...(seriously.. it's only 2 damn months.... why do they have to be so strict?)
so we went to take some neoprints instead... it was hilarious... Phoebe tried to draw things on Damien's face but Damien erased it off... and we drew on Phoebe's face instead... hahahahha we took neoprints on 2 machines... one of them was the machine we used on Guoliang's birthday...after taking neoprints, we went to ljs to eat... after that we decided to go to esplanade cause Phoebe had to meet Ting Ting(someone from church) in somewhere near there...speaking of tingting, the other day i saw her in the tv! gosh i was freaked...ok... back to the topic.... we went to esplanade to take photos but it was too hot and with the sun shining down on us and all, we lost our mood to take photos....we then walked to marina square and searched for somewhere to sit.. (our legs were hurting us so much.)we went to mcdonalds and talked about the good old days.... haha i sound so old. we talked till Phoebe was done and came to look for us... then we went to suntec. we kinda pushed Phoebe and Damien down the escalator and ran off. they were pissed off i think. then the rest of us went to look for food to eat and we manage to convince shannon to treat us to ice cream!!!
wahahahha.... lime sherbet!!!then we sat and talked again... haha we are like gossip mongers. we kept talking about what Phoebe would do if she was here. haha... then we took some photos in the toilet...hahahha shannon was saying that we didn't include him in the pics.... hahahah... well, he could've gone into the ladies with us... hahaha... we called Damidn can called him to look for us... then we decided to walk to clark quey... but phoebe and damien didn't wanna go, so they went off alone.... ugh... anyway, we walked for a very long distance and finally reached... we took some photos and went home... it sure was fun!... i so want Vivien to be there tho.... and weiya...those 2 were busy.... ugh... i wish things would just go back to be like it was then... when i didn;'t have to care about people backstabbing their friends... *sigh*

2006-06-01T09:58:00.000+08:00

finally i decided to blog.... (that's because i was totally bored ... maple was haveing a server check)
well, i got back my results.... i passed everyting except for english....

my results...

English- 49.3
(why are the teachers so mean? i mean... it won't kill to give like 0.7 more marks right?)
Maths-73.6(i wanted an A1, which is 75 marks)
Science-84.3
humanities-55.6(geography pulled me up)
principals of account- 89.3

hmmm that's all... and i topped the class! zhang kai must be furious for being second again.... hahahhahaha

2006-05-18T17:24:00.000+08:00

i just went to e-classroom to check my marks. and guess what? i FAILED ss.. i got 46... well, it's expected. but that's not all.. i had a dream a few days ago... i dreamt that i got 23/50 for ss... and it came true... lets see if my other dream will come true... lol....

2006-05-18T16:51:00.000+08:00

i didn't have to go to school for the past few days and it's really great! i've been slacking at home, doing noting, or going to pool with a few friends of mine. it's great to have a break after exams, cause i don't have to study! (you guys realise i'm a human as well).

i think i'll go back to the way i was last year, after i get back my results. i'm looking forward to knowing my marks but i have no idea what i will do if it sucks.

i'll have to go to school tomorrow and i really can't wait. though i have no idea why....

2006-05-09T19:41:00.000+08:00

i figured i should blog since it's chinese paper tomorrow..
there's nothing i can do to improve my chinese and it's too late anyway, since i've already given up on that subject...

ehmm right... i shall blog about my exams..

my first exam was...ehmm what was it? 0h well, i dun remember.. i'll just blog about how i think i did for the subjects then...
i know i'm a goner for english... although some people said i got the format right, but the format is not gonna help me pass.... i wrote TOTAL CRAP for my letter writing and my expostiton wasn't well done either... that's like the first time i did an exposition... so i'm sure i'll not do very well....

i shall not talk more about poa caused i've already talked about it...

my maths paper one was horrible... we had like 2 hours to fifish 20 plus questions and yet i didn't have enough time... pfffft... i so need a calculator... i kept making calculation mistakes and that was what wasted my time... i was left with 8 minutes to do about 5 questions in the end.....
i'm putting all my hope in my paper 2, just like last year....

social studies was the worst... i only wrote the begining for the SEQ question 2(b) which cost 13 marks...and social asudies is over 50 marks issn't it? that means 50-12(maybe i'll get one mark for the begining) =37
and that doesnt include all the mistakes thart i've made...this is so gonna pull me down...

i have no opinions about geog.... i think i'll not do too good for it tho.. i didn't study for all the topics..

today's papers... science.... physics was ok... i was so shocked that there were only 20 mcq questions tho... i filpped and flipped to look for question 21...-.-"

chemistry was DIFFICULT.... i have a feeling that Mr Lee is trying to make us all pass badly.......for those who didn't go for the chemistry extra lessons, too bad... cause he taught us some extra tihngs which came out for the exam....
i shall stop here... cuz i really can't stand the laptop.. it's like so damn lag... the words appear 5 seconds later...

laters!
XOXOXO

2006-05-07T02:43:00.000+08:00

hmm... things seems to be going the way i want it to be now, but why is it that i'm not happy? the thing that i want the most is not going happen, and i doubt it will ever will...but, at least give me a hope...

I want peace on earth... or at least in my class....

edit: thinking about it, i think it's quite impossible.. so... i wish for peace in my small group of friends... and hopefully they will realise that a game is not worth as much as a friend

2006-05-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

oh ya...
I was at 429 today with some of my classmates.
and we talked about lots of stuff, but mostly the comflicts of our class.
hmm... i dun think i can say what we talked about on here, but it was really interesting to hear their views... esp huili's.
i say anything to make her think of *** in a particualr way... and yet she thinks about *** this way...and Eileen too ... hmm..
(obviously i cant make it too obvious...forgive me)

2006-05-05T19:02:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the absence of entries... i was busy this few days.... busy playing sims on my cellphone.(when i should be studying)

anyway, i had my POA paper today and i think it went ok.The only thing i'm sure i got wrong is the revenue expenditure thing(in paper 1.. the mcq). The right answer was C (Natalie checked) and i put D as my answer(i put C initially, but i erased it away, for some reason). Anyway, i promised myself that if the answer was C, i'll not blame anyone, so i shall not blame myself....

I'm planning to study maths for the weekends and hopefully i won't be distracted like i was this few days.(i'm not sure if i have enough time though. It took me 2 weeks to study for last year's EOY...) wish me luck people. I'll write till here.I'm off to play sims...

2006-04-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

tomorro's GUO LIANG'S birthday...
(or today...it's 12.02)
let me start by saying a HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM..

lol..
me, JiaEn, Jeanette, GuoWei, JunTing, Eileen, Michael and GuoLiang went to town to celebrate his birthday...
lol... we were so damn high...

in the morning i was ps-ed
gakei told me we were meeting at 12 at cine... then no one came...
in the end i called them and they said they were still at home..
WTF??
lol..
so i went to kinokuniah to read books...
time passes fast... it was 2 before i knew it.
meet jean in paragon... then went to look for her sis...
waited a while in k-box then the rest came...
we wanted to watch a movie initially, but we couldn;t decide what to watch, so we went to eat instead... and we couldn't decide what to eat as well.
i think we took more than one hour to decide what to do and where to eat...
finally, Jeanette decided that the girls should decide...lol..

we went to pizza hut and got a free pizza!lol..
we have no idea why... but the waiter gave us an extra pizza..
lol..
after eating we have no where to go and so we decided to find somewhere to sit and talk...
went to istana park but it was fenced up....eileen was so high then..lol
so we walked to orchard mrt.... lol.. on the way, saw lots of wood cows... lol.. took lots of pics...
so damn funny... lol..
then junting, guo liang and michael jumped ova the cows... lol...
it was DAMN funny lah!
Jean took a video.. lol...
was sooo damn high!...
lol..

i hope i stay this way... at least i'm not sad...
i so need to get ova a few things...
i rather be totally crazy and happy!

2006-04-28T19:59:00.000+08:00

pffffffffft....... i got scolded by someone just now....

i was crossing the road and it was raining....i was listening to my mp3....
then when i reacherd the shelter, this auntie suddenly looked back and pointed to me... so i removed my ear phones and i realised she was scolded me, cuz i was walking in the rain with my ear phones...wand she was like cursing me..she said "dian si ni cai zi dao"....

and so, i wasnt' happy... so i calculated if it will kill me when if i listen to my mp3 when my ear is wet...

my cell is 1.2 volts and i found out from the internet that wet skin is about 60 000ohms to 1000ohms

using the formular, R=V/I,i can find out he current that will flow through my body and thus find out if the current is enough to kill me

if resistance is 60 000ohms
60 000= 1.2/I
I=1.2/60 000= 0.02mA

if resistance is 1000ohms
1.2/1000=1.2mA

i got this table from the internet it had a.c circuits as well, but since i'm not using it, i deleted it..... there's also something like this in the textbook...

BODILY EFFECT
---------------------------------------------------
Slight sensation felt at hand(s)
Men = 1.0 mA
Women = 0.6 mA
---------------------------------------------------
Threshold of perception
Men = 5.2 mA
Women = 3.5 mA
---------------------------------------------------
Painful, but voluntary muscle control maintained
Men = 62 mA
Women = 41 mA

---------------------------------------------------
Painful, unable to let go of wires
Men = 76 mA
Women = 51 mA
---------------------------------------------------
Severe pain, difficulty breathing
Men = 90 mA
Women = 60 mA
---------------------------------------------------
Possible heart fibrillation after 3 seconds
Men = 500 mA
Women = 500 mA

---------------------------------------------------

either ways it will not kill me...hah! take that, auntie!
(i am actually studying for my physics this way... hahahah)

2006-04-20T15:54:00.000+08:00

i had an amalgamation test today
it was alright, my figures were the same as the teacher's..
but somehow i can't get rid of this feeling that i'm gonna get my marks deducted...

2006-04-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

i'm now kinda glad that miss tracy changed my place, cause i've make great friends over at where i'm sitting now... people like wei xin, Guo Liang, Shun Fa and Weng Xian...
they are all really nice people... but of course, everyone have their flaws and people might not like them because of it..
but i believe that everything can be resolved peacefully.. hopefully...

i got back my POA paper today and i really don't understand why i can balance my balance sheet when i got the interest for Drawings wrong.... i dun even understand why i got the interest figure wrong... it's just simply the matter of taking 2250 dividing it by 10...and i somehow manage to get 250.... it's the dummest thing i've even done this year...we had lots of maths test these few day...

2006-04-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

stupid msn is not working..
they so have to take away my only mean of commmunication

2006-04-15T18:22:00.000+08:00

i detest myself
i keep asking myself why i did that something i did and i really couldn't accept the reason i give myself...
what am i turning into?
i've never found myself in a more pathetic state..
i kinda hope everyone can tell me they hate me...
that way, i won't have to care about anything anymore
_______________________________________________________
there are things i cant stand watching...
why do i have to force myself to watch it?

2006-04-14T20:46:00.000+08:00

it's good friday...
4 years ago on this holiday, i converted into a chrstian
so it's my spiritual birthsay, except that i've no idea if i'm still a chritsian..
i guess in my heart i'm not, cause i dun really care about religion anymore
i have no idea why i'm blogging this but i just wanna blog it out...

2006-04-11T18:39:00.000+08:00

today, while i was walking to the bustop in the afternoon ,i saw mdm yeo...
and i asked her about my phone... she said it was with mr lau... then after that, she said this "aiya u jc material one..*sigh*"
does she have to remind me that i can't go to jc?... pffft....
it's not like i didn't study.. it's just that i really have no interest in chinese...
i'm gonna look for mr lau tomorrow to ask about my phone... i think it'll be ok since mr lau knows me...
lol...

**************

and i know how to differenciate what is "brotherly and sisterly love" and what's not...
or do you think i need to go for lessons on "brotherly and sisterly love"?
may we never corss each other's path again

2006-04-10T19:16:00.000+08:00

i'm totally pissed off......
i think everyone who was in class during physics could see that....
anyway, something happened..
i dunno what caused it...
and i'm not sure i wanna know...

2006-04-09T14:26:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU!!!!

ignore me people... i just need to vent my anger somewhere....

2006-04-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

DAMN IT...
AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I REALY WANNA SCREAM..
I'M CRYING RIGHT NOW...
I JUST WENT TO E-CLASS ROOM ANY SAW MY PHYSICS MARKS...
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M REALLY NOT IN A GOOD MOOD...
DAMN U MDM YEO..
HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO ACE UR TEST WHEN U DUN TEACH ME?
...
I SWEAR I ASKED HER WHAT SHE TAUGHT THE CLASS..
I SWEAR...
UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FEEL LIKE THROWING THIS COMPUTER DOWN THE BLOCK JUST TO VENT MY ANGER
*SCREAMS*

2006-04-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

i need to scream...

i want to scream...

i want to scream...

*sigh*

she is such a cow..

bitch!

*feels like smacking people*

2006-04-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

*sigh*
i know i wanna blog about something... but the minute i come into this page, i forgot it..
so many of my friends are facing problems lately..
*sigh*
ugh... i'm having problems myself too..
ugh... better not think too much..
i dun want depression again..

oh ya... u just remember waht i wanna blog about...
today after school, i was in class... and cheng xun said he copied my POA work(hah! now i know who took it.. but that's not the point..)
he told me that i did lots of mistakes..
*sigh*
i seriouskly dunno how to do partnership..
i couldn't even balance the 1st question of the homework that mrs tan gave...
and i really don't want to do badly for another test because of my absence from school...
i dun wanna cry..

2006-04-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

ehm..
there's something i wanna blog about...
but i dunno how to say it..
nvm.. i'll not blog it..
ehmm..
we got back our maths paper today..
.and i must say i was kinda shocked.... fullmarks...
i was quite sure i'm gonna get 9.5, but Mrs Lim gave me full marks..
junting wasted half marks because he forgot to lable the triangle...
...

2006-04-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

forgot to blog about something very irritating...
MEDIACORP CHANGED THE TIME FOR SURVIVOR...
wtf...
it's now 11.30, which means that i have to choose, either to watch survivor or anime...
pffft...
i have no idea which to watch...
ugh...
i feel like watching POTC again...
just to see johnny and Orlando...
Captain Jack Sparrow is is so smart and soooo cool..
savvy?
haha..
imagine talking in some pirate lingo...
Aye!
Avast! and ehmm...really bad eggs?
haha

2006-04-04T21:59:00.000+08:00

*sigh*
i almost cried today...
because of a damn physics paper...(it's true.... when weixing and zhnag kai told me the answer to a particular question, my eyes was filled with tears... lol.... i don't know why.... but i almost cried)
ugh...
i didn't know how to do a question because i was absent from school...
and i know i did ask her what she taught the class..
and her reply was "you'll catch up very fast one"
...
she didn't even teach me..some of the formulars were taught to me by junting...
T.T..

2006-04-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!
POTC is such a NICE movie!!
Johnny is sooooo cool!!!!
and Orlando is like OMG(in a good way)!!
i'm gonna watch the next one when it comes out....
i;m gonna watch X-men 3 too..
i never got the chance to watch x-men 2.... ugh...
and i realy wanted to watch it....
i've been playing maple these few days and i have been neglecting my work...
ugh...
i should study more...
but if i dun play now, i won;t have the chanvce to play after june.... i need to study for my o-levels....
ugh...

-really bad eggs...

2006-04-01T08:02:00.000+08:00

i'm in a freaking bad mood today
(i know it's only morning....)
i'm not gonna blog about it....
hopefully my mood'd be better on monday

2006-03-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

i'm pissed off ...
i'm pissed off with the chinese head of department... the hei mu er...
not because she told my mum i didn't go for CLB lessons...
but because she told my mum perfectly untrue things...
i wouldn't be angry if she just told my mum that i missed the lessons, cause i really did missed the lessons...
but she told my mum that i failed maths and english and i suck at all my subjects (that's not exactly what she said... but it's something like that..)
pffft..... DID I EVEN FAIL MY MATHS? DID I DO BADLY FOR ALL MY SUBJECTS?
I DIDN'T..
that stupid hei mu er DIDN'T EVEN FIND OUT THE TRUTH
and just told my mum that i suck...
no wonder everyone hates her....
AND SHE TOLD MY MUM I WAS RUDE TO HER...
who the hell would be polite to someone who said negative things about you without even finding out the truth?
...
i hate teachers like her

2006-03-28T18:27:00.000+08:00

Kiss Orlando

oh look! it's Orlando!(click on the link above) *melts*
he's sooooo kissable!!!!!

2006-03-28T16:51:00.001+08:00

oh god.... i just reached home from school...
i had an oral test and i seriously can't remember doing anyworse for an oral test....
the reading was ok... but i was kinda distracted by junting who was in the class...
the picture discription was very very bad....
mrs pan asked me lots of questions and i was stucked even before discribing the picture....
the conversation wasn't any better....i kept thinking in my mind "wtf?" and "what kind of question is that?" when she asked me the 2 questions....
and when she prompted me, i was like"ehm.. dunno".... gosh.... i'm soooo dead....
and junting made matters worse by distracting me.... i kept trying not to laugh....
ugh.....
there goes my edusave scholarship.....*cries*

2006-03-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

ahhhh!!!!
i'm dead...
really dead...
i missed one chemistry practical(or 2)....
i missed my poa lessons....
i missed maths lessons....
ugh.... now i'm kinda lost.....

2006-03-21T16:47:00.000+08:00

didn't go to school today....
was having fever in the morning...
the office didn't call...
i missed one hour of physics and 1.5 hour of maths....
i guess i'll have to read up on what the teacher taught ....

2006-03-19T18:51:00.000+08:00

i'm sick..
i'm having a fever and sore throat and i have a very bad headache which comes and goes randomly...
how irritating...
and what a great time it is to be sick..
i'm having school tomorrow and i haven't finish my homework...
i haven't even started on my CME and maths and i'm left with 2 questions for my chem.
maybe i should stay at home tomorrow and miss the chemistry lesson...

2006-03-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

.... i had this Adam Khoo motivational thingy in school for 3 days.... and i seriously have no idea why Mrs Tan thought it was really good...
in my opinion, the things that would be useful are the study tips .... at last i can study smart..... (well, i've only started studying last year, and i am kinda new to this thing called "studying")

i'm not really motivated... in fact, when some motivated people wins me in my test, i think i'll be depressed...it's not a really bad thing... it made me study... hahaha...so you can say that depression leads to motivation...(ignore me... i have no idea what i'm blogging about... this is what happens when i have insufficient sleep....

it's thursday tomorrow and i'll have to do as much homework as possible because we're gonna have a class outing on friday.... (i'm so tired that i don't feel excited, but i assume that i will be excited tomorrow.)

many of my friends are facing problems.... i feel sad for them ...
am i weird? lol.. why do i care about others so much? lol.... one of the reason was so depressed last year is because of something like this.... ugh..

2006-03-12T11:15:00.000+08:00

somehow i managed to make the eye lighter.....
but i couldn't edit the stray hair cuz i dunno where it is...lol....

2006-03-11T10:45:00.000+08:00

i just finished painting this..
i hate painting the hair... i so have no idea how to paint hair...

2006-03-10T18:57:00.000+08:00

i have to mood to blog at all....
in fact, i have no mood to do even the things i like to do most....
*sighs*..
*is scared of depression*

2006-03-09T21:27:00.000+08:00

something went wrong with internet explorer while i was typing this post.... but since i'm such an un-lazy person, i shall retype the post again....
(i couldn't recover the damn post...)

ok.... i woke up at 3 a.m. in the morning, and used the computer.....
was involved in a "stalk war"....
then at about 6.30, i went to school....
during english, we were filmed by the school...
no one dared to sleep.. hahaha...
then 2 periods later, we had POA....
mrs tan told us our marks.... i was crossing my fingers.....
my marks for the previous test: 24/26
*sigh*
i know it's not bad, but if i got 0.5 marks more, i'd be the top in class...
during maths, Chen Yong and Eugene told me a totally lame story.....
i shall not talk about that...
then we had 4 periods of humanities...imagine how boring that would be.....
after school, huili, xing yi, gakei and me went to KFC...
lol... it was sooo sad...
me and jia qi were forced to eat our own kind...
*sob*
hahahaha...
after eating me and Xing Yi went to town... lol...
she bought a bikini..*slaps all those drooling guys*
lol...
then we went home....

no one was at home.... and i had no key.... so i had to wait outside the house for 3 hours...
i only had my RD and MP3 to entertain me...
and i had to listen to the ocassional chiming of the clock at home...(which reminds me how mich time i wasted) and the sreaming of the 2 year old girl next door.....
about 1 hour later, i finished reading RD and waited for my sis or my parents....
well, at about 7.30, my sis came home.... and i was sooo happy!.... finally i can get into the house.... but... guess what? she didn't bring the key as well.....
well, the good thing is she brought her phone out.... so we called my parents.... instead of rushing back, my dad asked me to wait outside the house. what's the use of calling him??
lame....
finally at about 8.30, they came home.....
i wasted 3 whole hours outside my house, when i could've been doing my homework...

2006-03-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

i changed my blogskin....
and added a song.... i dunno if it works tho...lol

2006-03-07T19:19:00.000+08:00

Today we got back our physics paper..... i saw a few careless mistakes, which caused me to lose to zhang kai...(ok..i admit... that wasn't true.... even without the mistakes, i would still lose to him) ugh....
and we got back our maths paper too..... i forgot to change one of my answers.... that caused me to lose 1 mark.(also 10/100 marks)
but look on the bright side.... at least i passed! 8/10... haha.... andrew got 9/10.... lol... thanks to me..... HAHAHAH....
we got back our english paper too.(the summary we did like 4 weeks ago(was is 4 weeks? or 5 weeks?)) and i'm glad to say that i passed!.... although i failed badly for my language(4/10), i got quite high for my content(10/15)... so i got 14/25 for english!... i improved!.... hahaha....
i'm quite satisfied with my marks...and i didn't fail any subjects!.....my average for this month is 73.3(an A2!!!)
omg... i've never got such a high average before....

i was appointed as the maths rep for term two, all thanks to my mouth.... well, next time i shall try not to give too many comments.... and i kinda "pulled" xing yi with me..... she's the assistant... wahahahhaha.....maybe if i start to hand in work late, kimkim will change the maths rep...hmmm...

during CME, miss tracy told us to cut out this article from the newspaper...
i thought it was interesting and relevant to geog, so i've already cut it out on monday...... and i and this feeling that miss tracy would want us to cut it out....

after school, me and xing yi wanted to study chem, so we went to the library in jurong east.... and we ended up reading story books..... i was reading the hobbit... and i regret not reading it ealier! i's such a nice book... i doubt i'll ever read it if i have never got to know Ana and Corvis....

speaking of Ana and Corvis, i recently got like 30 to 50 stalks a day from people from HPANA..... it's real scary.... i started ignoring my e-mails but it was the wrong choice.... i got like 90+ unread e-mails now.....
all thanks to the "harmless" stalk war started by Ana, Corvis and Maz and me...
i swear never to stalk anyone for no reasons again.....

this might be the longest post ever... wahahahhaha...
xingyi, now you can't say that all my posts are short...

(i have this feeling that i've left something out....hmmm.... nvm...)

2006-03-06T18:45:00.000+08:00

this is the pic that i said i would post....
it looks kinda weird..
the hair doesn't look like it belongs to the head... the shading is kinda weird too...
but i think it's ok since it's my 1st time doing this kind of things.........
comment please.... i accept both good and bad comments....

edit: maybe i'll do something about the nose... and the shirt

2006-03-06T16:43:00.000+08:00

i have psychosis..... OMG... lol...
i talk (when i aam feeling stressed during a poa test.... LOL)
and laugh to myself.... LOL....
people think that i think the whole world is against me...
i can fly.... i have super powers!...
i am sad and lonely?
lol... ok... i'm being totally lame.....(i am JOKING.... just saying so that no one would think that i really suffer from mental illness...)

there's nothing much to blog about except that i got back my chem paper!!!!!
(and it's kinda obvious that i did quite well, just by looking at the amount of exclamation marks...)
i got 28.5/30
i improved!!!... yay!!!

oh ya... and shing min lost her wallet...
is there a thief in our class?
people keep losing their things....
it's a good thing shingmin did not bring her ic....

2006-03-05T19:49:00.000+08:00

ugh... my relative came suddenly today...
(i had like 1 hour to pack my super untidy room)
i so didn't study much today...
i only got like 3.5 POA questions and 3 maths questions done this weekend...
(don't worry... there's no homework.... i was just doing for fun...)
i shall blog more later, cause my relatives are still here.....

2006-03-04T19:15:00.000+08:00

*sighs*
i NEED self-control.... i mean it...
i went to ARENA again today, even after i promised myself that i will not go...
ugh... i'm gonna do the POA worksheet later.... so that my "cosign" would be clear...
lol..

anyway, today xing yi and junting keep talking about me and Jason....
i'm like WTF?
.....
what is wrong with them??